2011

January 3, 2011 at 11:08 am · Filed under Uncategorized

Perhaps time never forgets.

I recall writing those very words 3 years ago, as a young man both confused and eager about the future, uncertain of the direction life will take him, and inherently smug as most young men are.

I guess I haven’t changed that much since then, except varsity.

I like to think I am more aware of where I am in this world.

Growing up as a boy, I had a firm belief that I was quite abundant- in terms of financial stability, in terms of my family’s position in society overall. I guess growing old has changed my perspectives on life a little.

Beneath the facades I stood behind as a child, lay reality. Within that reality, little did I know that I was nothing.

The tiny speck of intelligence I thought I possessed, was in fact non-existant. The world was cruel.

I both loathe and love the way my brain thinks. Having gone through two and a half years of being constantly lied to and played with and loved and cared about by a certain woman, I guess its only natural my defence mechanism within my brain has tightened up a little. Also, might I add, a desire to succeed.

I guess that desire was always inside me, as it is in most human beings. The desire to compete, to conquer and to overpower, to outsmart and in doing so gain that heart-warming satisfaction and sweet taste in one’s mouth– of victory.

I guess my competitive nature was suppressed by two things in the past few years: In order to be socially acceptable and Utter ignorance.

We’ll carry on tomorrow. Got an early start tomorrow morning.

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